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    Overcoming Fear

    March 15, 2018 April Postma
    Hola everybody! 
    This is April.
    Looking back on the events and activities we’ve had over the past while it’s been pretty hard to know what to write here and what to wait on until I can tell it all in person because there has just been so much going on. 
    I do really want to say just how grateful I am for all the prayers and support of everyone back home because I can see how God is working through those prayers and strengthening me with them.
    For those of you who may not know me so well I am a very fearful person 98% of the time.
    Some of those fears include, but are not limited to, The unknown, People and what they think of me, Messing up, Letting down or disappointing people, and many, MANY, others.
    The thing is, Mission Peru is a great chance to meet new people, learn more about God, and strengthen relationships with both God and the team. 
    However, it is also a really great chance to encounter every single fear of mine that I have been struggling with. 
    But this is where your prayers come in. My fears and anxieties have been the main prayer request I’ve had for my family and my small group. It’s been very clear to me that these fears have become an idol in my life. But the crazy thing is that this whole time I’ve been here I haven’t had that panic in my heart and mind. Things that would usually leave me in tears thinking of all the ways it could go wrong or how I would somehow ruin the whole mission if I messed up in the slightest suddenly had no effect on me.
    I know that this is only because of the LORD and not any power or confidence that could come from me. Through letters and encouragement from family and friends I can see that others truly care for me and are praying for me back home. Letter after letter reminding to lean on and trust in God has showed me how much people love me and it is really incredible!
    I don’t know where my mindset will be at when I return home. Maybe I’ll still be fearless or maybe I won’t but I know God will be with me regardless.
    One other thing that meant so much to me was something a leader who I love very much, Esther Chew, said while we were doing construction work.
    We were shovelling sand from a huge pile into wheelbarrows and using it to reinforce the compound walls.
    As we were doing this Esther said, “Guys. We are literally moving mountains right now.”
    That was incredibly encouraging to hear because we usually see moving mountains as something that happens fast. Getting from point A to Point B in an instant.
    But sometimes, it happens slowly, gradually, with a lot of work and a lot of help.
    We can’t do it on our own but with the strength and abilities God has given us and the help, love, and support of the people God has put in our lives, we can move these mountains.
    It may take a long time but I have full confidence that God is both able and will to stay but my side as I battle fear, learn to trust, and slowly, one shovel and one wheelbarrow at a time make these mountains move.
    I am so excited to see you all again and continue letting God use me to glorify him when I come home.
    See you again soon!

    Comment

    On Saturday, March 17, 2018, Mindy Worrad said:

    This is so encouraging April. Thank you for sharing your struggles and glorifying God as you speak of His work in you while in Peru. Can’t wait to hear how God uses this encounter with Him to set a course of faith long term in your life as you return home. He is good!

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Warren Wright said:

    April, What an amazing and encouraging blog! Thank you for being transparent and sharing that with us! God is faithful!

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Maddy Postma said:

    Just love this so much, April! When I read this, I can't help but think of 2 Corinthians 12:9 "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." Thank you for glorifying God by being honest with your struggles and pointing to the power of Christ!

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Linda said:

    What a blessing you are to us all. Praying for you.

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Nancy Sinclair said:

    Be yourself. God made you and He doesn't make any mistakes. We are praying for you.

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Mary Stanley said:

    Nothing like a good shower of tears for my eyes first thing in the morning! As I was reading your post I was reminded of a verse from Luke that really struck me in a recent sermon series. Luke 1:74 that we, being delivered from the hand of our enemies , might serve him without fear. Great insights on the moving of mountains. I have also thought of this as something instant but more often it is one rocky shovel at a time .

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Karla Doucher said:

    Oh my dear, beautiful, lovely, gifted, strong, courageous, and highly able niece! I love you more than you could ever know. Believe me, I understand your fears, as I have struggled a lifetime with them myself. But those words I just used to describe you are the words that come to my mind when I think of you. As I have discovered in my life, the way I often think of myself is not the way God or others see me. They are words that Satan uses to discredit the amazing work that God is doing in and through you. I am so proud of you for having the courage to go in obedience to Christ to a land that desperately needs to experience (through you) the love of Christ -- by the life you live, the love you show , and the work you share. May the God of hope, and strength, and power, and courage, bless you as you seek to be filled with Him and allow Him to do His work through you.

    With all my love and prayers, Aunt Karla

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Liliana Lapierre said:

    Let the name of the Lord be praised! April what a beautiful testimony of the power there is in Jesus name. It is for freedom that he has set us free. So thankful for the experience of freedom he has given you. I will be praying for you as you return. But what made me cried as I read was your declaration of faith: maybe there will be fear, maybe not, but either way God is with you. Amen April! I pray we would all find rest in knowing the Lord Jesus himself intercedes on our behalf! Can’t wait to see you!

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Mary Wright said:

    God is good! April, you are such an encouragement! Keep trusting God as you take on the next task there! Proverbs 3:5-6 Thanks for acknowledging Him in this experience.

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Kat Weaver said:

    Hi April, you don't know me I'm a youth leader at Summit Community Church in Richmond Hill Ont I've been following the trip to Peru because I wanted to see if this is something that we can bring to our youth as a growth opportunity. I stumbled upon your blog and just wanted to tell you that I think you are very brave. You describe yourself as an anxious person, yet here you are mikes away from home "moving mountains" shovelful by shovelful. I believe that it's a great metaphor for what he is doing in your life right now. As you shovel your sand (anxieties, loose pieces of insecure footing) into God's big wheelbarrow He will use it to create a firm foundation (strengthening and securing you where you stand) I pray as you return home and reflect on your trip you realize that God is with you always and when you let Him mold you He will make you stronger and more secure so that your footing currently in sand will rest on a firm foundation. Enjoy the rest of your trip, may your mountains continue to move. Jeremiah 18:4

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Jude St. John said:

    April, thank you for this wonderful reflection. It is so encouraging to hear of how God is working in your life.

    "But sometimes, it happens slowly, gradually, with a lot of work and a lot of help." I would say that this is usually the case. God generally works this way in our lives and your recognition of this truth will serve you well as you serve you King.

    God will complete the work he began in you. God will conform you to the image of Christ. And he will, most likely, do it one shovel and one wheelbarrow at a time!

    Jude

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Nicole St John said:

    April, thanks so much for sharing your heart and putting your fears in the light...... we will be praying for you that that our amazing loving God would continue to work in you through his spirit as you return home to us! You are precious and beautiful, thanks for stepping out of your call mfort zone and serving as you are doing on our behalf! Xo

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Tiffany said:

    Psalm 34:4 says, "I prayed to the Lord, and He answered me. He freed me from all my fears." Amen, and praise God! April we will continue to pray for you as you step on that bus/plane and off on to Canadian soil - that you will continue to step in faith and not fear for what comes next! - Love Tiffany

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Barbara said:

    April...Like you, I don't know how much to say here and how much to wait until we are face-to-face. Either way, I'll be a teary mess trying to get words out to you. Looking at the photos of you all week, I've been saying, "She just looks free!" Praise the Lord for the reprieve he has given you from the fear. And whether that mountain is moved all at once or in pieces, quickly or slowly, permanently or temporarily, I know that he will guard your heart and mind with the peace that only Jesus can give, and he will use this time in Peru as a memorial stone of what he can do. Much love to you, dear girl. The Lord is at hand. (Phil. 4:5)

     

    On Thursday, March 15, 2018, Chris said:

    Way to go, Girl! So proud of you! See you on Saturday D.V.

     

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Trujillo is a city in coastal northwestern Peru and the capital of La Libertad Region. It is located on the banks of the Moche River, near its mouth at the Pacific Ocean, in the Valley of Moche.

This was a site of the great prehistoric Moche and Chimu cultures before the Inca conquest. expansion. It is the centre of the second most populous metropolitan area of Peru and most populous city of the North macroregion of the country.

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